Me

Now this time around Im going to discuss well...me. And if you are thinking to your self, "Wow.This chic is Narcissistic." and you click off the page,I understand,and I wont hate you! I just needed some time to vent and remind myself of who I really am and what I stand for and what I Hope to be one day.SHORT BLOG!

My name is Haley.I hate my name. Its so boring and normal!! I mean come on, How many Haley's do you know or have heard of? a lot. I dont mean change my name to something CrAzY and out of the park like Sha-naynay or something ridiculous but the point is, I want to be different! I want to stand out! I dont want a name that just blends in with the Gray sidewalk and watch people walk over it day by day by day and see nothing of it! I want to be like a Froot Loop in a bowl of Cheerio's.I want to be the girl who wears the crazy socks and the neon colors and who will step out of their comfort zone to do anything. I want to be the girl who takes risks and is up to any challenge that is thrown at her! That girl, whoever it is, I want to be.

I want to be a Journalist/Columnist. I realized I wanted to be this when I was in 3rd grade after writing cursive letters.In kindergarten, I remember wanting to be a police officer like my daddy but as time went on, I found myself being captivated by Quotes, Books, Magazines, NewsPaper, Essays, and other things..and of course other careers popped in my head along the way.I know for a while, I wanted to be a Historian and study Ancient Greek Mythology after learning about the gods but that dream was soon extinguished after my dad told me Historians had no life...So now I am pursuing my dream(:

Love, who doesnt love it? and if you said no, you have no heart. JUST KIDDING! but seriously, lighten up! But anyway, I am one of those girls who never attracted the guys, Who tells everyone else they are beautiful but cant tell my self that. Im a girl who likes guys but end up ruinig it all too soon(went there never going back). Yes, I celebrate Valentines even though I am alone, I would rather watch a fairytale love story become reality, than going to the movies with my friends, what I have left of them anyways. And another thing, If you dont have that one guy(talking to girls here), that you can tell absolutely anything to and he still doesnt walk away from you but instead holds your hand and tells you Its gonna be ok(': I thank the Lord I have my guy and he wont ever leave me by myself!

Fiddler(: Misses and Thank You's

It kills me to know that I no longer have play practice anymore...I mean for months we went over the same flipping scenes over and over and over again making them perfect. And now that the play is over, I don't know what I'm going to do with myself anymore! I guess I'll just have to start another book series again and wait for that movie to come out haha. But the point is that I am definitly going to miss everyone. I became really close with people who arent even close to my age!! I mean a 5th grader has now made my Best Friend list and a Senior actually talks to me now... pretty dorky for a Freshmen, I know, but I truly am going to miss everybody!!! I am going to cry because in next year's play we are losing 2 beloved and INSANELY talented Actresses, Rebecca Botter and Hannah Layman who have been involved with plays for as long as I can remember!

Rebecca has ALWAYS been my Inspiration for acting and I cant help but smile when she is on stage because she is amazing at what she does...I feel kind of unworthy when we have a scene together or we are on stage at the same time because I feel like she just over powers me so much and she is so blessed to have this amazing talent that I can only dream about having! and if I was to pick any actress that was my favorite out of anyone...it would MOST DEFINITLY be her!!!! Rebecca is such a sweetheart and I am captivated when she is on stage..she lights up the room with her personality and Jesus loving heart and she is always in charecter no matter what chaos was around...If the whole curtain fell down around her she would still keep on with her charecter...She is so focused in everything she does and she strives to make her performance perfect and I am learning to do the same because of her example...In this year's play, Fiddler On The Roof, she played Tzeitel, the eldest daughter of Tevye... and I, Yente the Matchmaker, was supposed to arrange a match for her. I originally chose for her Lazar Wolf, the Butcher, but by her perfomance on stage I felt bad about trying to pair her up with Lazar Wolf even if it wasn't real!! She was meant for Motel(Thomas) and thats how it turned out(: I'm going to miss Rebecca's spunky,uplifting,Firecracker performances and I am going to cry my eyes out when she leaves for college!!! Rebecca Botter if you happen to read this, I want you to know that you Inspire me and you make me want to work harder and you are turning into being my hero and for that, I thank you(:

Anyway, I am going to miss alot of things and it almost brings me to tears when I think about it! I am most definitly going to miss Hayden giving me a hug before performances and whispering in my ear, "Do Work." I am going to miss Jeffrey's random hugs and our awesome handshake that consisted of banging our fists against each others and him telling me "ROCK IT OUT!!You are going to do Awesome!!" I am going to miss me and Katie Kelly's inside joke...I am going to miss our Coloring Table, Trey's constant obsession with Eden, Ayana's laughter,Justin's beard, our whole dressing room singing Stronger at the top of our lungs, Jack and Thomas' intrusions when they came looking for Annie, Lizzie's mustache, Emily and Katie's sweetness, Me and Kaylan's insane coloring,Craig and Frank coloring trees and dragons, Mrs. Talley's pep talks, Botter's walk, Thomas' awesome flip,Logan's repetition of my one line as soon as I get off stage, Mike the Sound guy, and who could forget Mary Katherine Fallin over the monitor during bows, andso many others, but the bottom line is I miss everyone dearly and as much as we hated practice and doing these scenes over and over again, and staying till 11:30 at night but, it was so worth it those performance nights!

Mr. Travis, I would like to say thank you for everything you have done!! You helped me so much along with others and I thank you for getting that insane Yente out of me! You made my charecter come alive and I could have never done that alone.You were always there for the constant encouragement and even for make-up mishaps and I appreciate that. You have always been and always will be a musical Genius to me and and by your life, I strive to be a better Christian and I just want to say Thank You for Everything!

I'm going to do the same as Rebecca and put this on a tweet for all my Fiddler cast to see how much I love them!! Because no way can this fit in 140 Charecters!!!! haha also check out Rebecca's blog "I Can't Believe It's Not Botter!" link on her twitter page...because apparently Copy and Paste has failed me!!

Only You Can Be You

I get really upset when someone wishes that they were someone else...for instance a girl looks at the most popular girl and says "I want to be her..Shes perfect." Little do we know but no matter how good he or she looks on the outside, they could be falling to pieces in the inside...God said you are fearfuly and wonderdfully made. God knew you before you were even in your mothers womb.. Dont you dare say that you are not Beautiful....even for guys too but mostly girls.Anyway, I went through a hard time believing that because I didnt have good friend who was there for me and left me all te time and I thought it was because I wasnt pretty enough.but it wasnt! She was just a mean friend...

And let me just tell you something real fast!! And this is for Girls! Please please please, im begging you, dont like a guy thats a jerk and treats you like some kind of ragdoll. Stand up for yourself! You are not a toy! You have a toungue use it! Dont keep silent about something that needs to be said. Speak Now or FOREVER hold your peace! If he breaks your heart grab your bestie and go break his face!(: eat Ice Cream and plot revengeeee! Hahahaha but seriously its time for you to be strong and stand.. Dont cry now, but Stand, because the rain cant last for ever and after every storm come the rainbow...

RaNdOm

Uh..huh another song! this one is A Little Bit Stronger by Sara Evans and this is NOT ANOTHER HATE-BLOG THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!! yeah you know who you are...

Riding in the car to work and I'm trying to ignore the hurt
So I turned on the radio, stupid song made me think of you
I listened to it for minute but I changed it
I'm getting a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger

And I'm done hoping that we could work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking that you could ever change

I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days
I get a little bit stronger

this is only a little part of it but its my favorite part of the song!!! But im also hooked on Cinema from Skrillex but mainly this one. So this blog is going to be RaNdOm!!!! I got lots of stuff on the lineup...Number 1. THE HUNGER GAMESS and that should get anyone hooked...so lets start..

The Hunger Games
       How many days left til the Premiere?!?!?!?!? i honestly dont know but i just know that it better be as good as the book or else i will be thoroughly disappointed! the books were so amazing and I just cant wait to watch Josh Hutcherson and Liam Hemsworth as Peeta and Gale(:(: Who would you have Katniss rather end up? Peeta or Gale? for me, I will pick Peeta over Gale any day, just because has something that Gale just cant grasp...I cant put my finger on it but theres just something thats sets them apart O__o

NUMERO DOS
     So you remember at the end of my last blog I said all I could think about now was Hands? and couldnt figure out why? well i figured out why today... a song came rushing through my head! Vanilla Twilight by Owl City!!! it goes "Its when I look at my HANDS and feel sad because the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly!" i dont know why that was so important but its been running through my head all flippin day long along with a million other things!

NUMERO TRES
    So today we had a tornado warning at school and one of my classmates was getting scared and after it was over I saw a little girl crying and all I could think about was "Why would anyone be crying?"...As the wind howled outside, my heart was calm because God put Psalm 62:6 on my heart.."He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken" and I just thought no matter how big a storm gets God is bigger still. But that little girl reminded me that theres really nothing to be scared of..Well I know that for me....If you are saved thateres absolutely nothing to worry about..I know God is holding me in His arms and no matter what I do, He is never going to let me go. No matter how scared I get, God is holding me and comforting me in times of Trouble and pain..

NUMERO CUATRO
      All I can say is be careful choosing your friends... I have three best friends that I can tell anything to and I know they will always be there for me no matter what I do! When I was smaller I was kind of Best friends with everybody, and that didnt turn out so well..Lets just say Today,I'm not liked by all the girls in my class. So make sure you know that person VERY well before just letting them in your life...
    
NUMERO CINCO
       The play!! FOTR is coming on amazing and Im so excited for it March 15!!!!Like you have no idea how many times Ive gone over this script!! I love being and old woman that hates people and my favorite quote right now is from Dr. Barnum when she goes 'Okay....Just sit there and be Judgemntal(: hahah I love Yente(;

EBC and Another Thing

I went and saw USJ's "Happy Days" tonight and I have to say overall it was pretty good(:  but I noticed something not about the play...but about the people. I went and saw it with my Best friend, Mary Katherine, and though we had fun together, I went to see my friends from Englewood, Sierra and Allyson. But thats just it, I went for my Englewood church friends and some more of my mutual EBC church friends are going to see them tomorrow! Im so glad that we still have teens like that...who would take the time to go enjoy each others talents and celebrate it with them... I mean, at my home church, we would NEVER do that for each other in our youth group. Yeah,we go bowling once a year at Christmas, but thats it. It's quite sad, but we just arent that close and it is just something we have to work on, But Teens at Englewood are different! and I loveeeee it that way. I get a blessing from them because I realize how much they are there for each other and how much they actually do love each other...
   
   And just another thing about Englewood....I go to visit there quite often on Wednesdays, often enough that Youth Pastor,Josh, considers me one of their own and I love it!! Every time I visit Im always meeting someone new.Last time I went, I met a guy named Steven/Stephen I dont know how it is spelled  but The guy is P-R-E-C-I-O-U-S!!! He accepted me right off the bat! And the time before that I reunited with a girl I met on Fall Retreat named Kara,again thats probably not how you spell it but oh well(:  She was very nice and we now know each other...

      The bottom line is Englewood is a amzing church and for anyone looking for a church in the Jackson area I highly suggest that one(:

      And just a little side note...Dont believe everything you hear...because chances are it's probably not true. You dont know how many times that story has been passed around and it could have goten changed 1000 times before it ever gets to you. Its just another Rumor that was designed to tear somebody down, to make them feel like a nobody. And when you hear such Ridiculous news,heres some advice, Just keep your mouth closed...Instead of trying to tear people doen all the time like the ways of this world, be a rebel and be nice for once. That's what Jesus wants...and doesnt every Christian have the motive to live for Him? Give Glory to Him because He is the only one that is worthy of praise<3